A little insight into me.........

Ok Guys I saw this on my friend Delusional's website and yes I will give props for my inspiration, but thought it would be a way to get to know me.


Welcome to the 2010 edition of getting to know your friends. Okay, here’s what you’re supposed to do, and try not to be lame and spoil the fun!




Name Teradawn Serenity

What is your occupation in SL? DJ, Manager, Hybrid Princess ;-)

How many items in your inventory? Just over 42000

What are you listening to right now? We are the Fallen

What was the last thing you ate? Yogurt

Can you drive a stick shift? Nope

If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Magenta - Kind of purple kind of Pink lol

Last person you spoke to on the phone? The Phone Company

Do you like the person who sent you this? Well I kind of Copied it from her but Yes I do!

How old are you today? 39 yes shhhhhh I know

Favorite drink? Sweet iced tea

What’s your favorite sport to watch? None

Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes but only to color the grey, refers to the 39 age, lol!

Pets? 2 Dogs, 1 Cat


Favorite food? Definitely have to say Mexican but Italian is damn close!

Last movie you watched? The Sorcerers Apprentice


Favorite day of year? New Years day, you have the whole year in front of you and anything is possible.

What do you do to vent your anger? I Sing


What was your favorite toy as a child? Radio

Whats your favorite season? Autumn

Hugs or Kisses? Definitely Both, as long as you are my special someone

Cherry or blueberry? Cherry

When was the last time you laughed? Last Night

When was the last time you cried? Don't remember

What is on the floor of your closet? Shoes and a dirty clothes basket lol

Favorite smells? Baking Cookies, outside after it rains, and Coffee!

Who inspires you? My Grandfather did


What are you afraid of? Becoming Emotionally blank

Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Cheese and Spicy!


Favorite car? 1969 Corvette stingray in Candy Apple Red Metallic!

Favorite cat breed? Siamese


Number of keys on your key ring? Too many!

How many years in your current job? 6


Where’s The Question? Everywhere

How many states have you lived in? 3


Do you think you’re fun? Maybe

Favorite Tree? Pink Dogwood


Favorite all time music Album/CD: Wow that is hard, I would have to say Evanescence - Open Door and Sarah McLachlans's Surfacing but those that know me already know my tastes vary considerably lol!

Photography in Second Life

So I have come to thoroughly enjoy photography in SL. The opportunities are endless and with some photo programs you can have a lot of fun. I find this to be a good play time stress reliever. I have also found I can spend countless hours just sitting around playing with backgrounds, poses and props. Having fun an being creative all at the same time. I don't just do them for me. My real joy is doing them for others and getting the joy of having them like them. I am by far not the best out there. There are some out there who's photo's take my breath away with what they can do. I hope to someday be as good as them but until then I will play and have fun doing it. Another good thing about it is that you can earn lindens too. Many people in SL need professional or good looking pic's for one thing or another. Whether it be for profile pictures or tip and host jars there are plenty out there willing to pay you for your time. So if you are looking for a way to earn lindens and your creative try it out.
Here are a few I have done.

Friends, Enemies, Lovers and Stalkers

Interesting title isn't it? Well there is a reason for it. In Second Life you will quickly find that you will come across all of these types of people. It is also Possible that all those names could be one person, You could start out as friends, become lovers who may turn out to be stalkers and then become your enemy. If you are lucky this will not happen to you, If you are even luckier you will not have to experience all four. I have been lucky enough not to experience all four, but I have had to deal with all of those terms on separate levels. How do you tell when someone will start as a friend and end up something else? You don't, you cannot be in someones head and know what they are thinking. Are there warning signs? Of course there are, they are in the little things they say and do. When someone is your Friend you tend to have a closer knowledge of that person. You hope to know them but you can't always know what they what they are truly thinking. Some have stalker material written all over them. Yes those are the friends that message you all the time with odd reasons and are never really a true friend. They may be on your list but you never really know them. You know off the bat that there is something off with them, their mindset is off. They are either angry or too loving towards someone they hardly know. They don't listen to reason and they don't like no. These are the ones you watch for and need to leave as soon as possible.

You also have those that start off as friends and for some reason or other you have a falling out and you make an enemy. Whether it is something you did or they did, you never know. The best thing you can do is be careful and try to live the best second life you can. All one can do is be the best you can be. Be true to your self and at least you will know you can do no other. So live the best second life you can and remember the block button and mute can really be your best friend to get rid of those that bother you. It will make things far more enjoyable. So Go have fun and meet the good people in Second life and avoid the bad ones!

The Answer

Don't ask what is wrong
The answer is unnatainable
The answer is me
The answer is you

You are my sadness
You are my regret
You are my happiness
You are my protection I do not deserve
You are my life I cannot have
You are my dream I cannot dream
You are my walls I build back up
You are my soul
That is given freely

Don't ask me what is wrong
The answer is unnatainable
The answer is me
The answer is the problem
The answer is

I would have it no other way

I am a Rock

I am a rock,
Hard and strong
You can throw me
I will Bounce
You can bury me
I will withstand
Needing no air
You can hold me
I will be smooth
You can count on me
I will be strong for you
You can come to me
I will be there forever

But if you crush me
I turn to dust
To return to the earth
Just in pieces
Never to be strong
Never to be smooth
Never to bounce
Never to be whole again
Never to be there for you
Only to be pieces
Of what I once was
Left to return
To the earth
Alone Forever

Mirror

I look in the mirror but what do I see
The shell of me that the others see
That is all I choose to show
No one is allowed to see

For to show more
Would show a wound that bleeds
Flowing out of me forever
Never finding another to seal it
It flows as the moon rises and falls
But I do not show it

This wound I hide away
Not allowing anyone to see
For the pain I hide is too great
For mere mortals cannot concieve
Of the Pain I bear
And the Evil I have seen

I look the the mirror and what do I see
A shell of a woman that all others see
But no one see's me

The ones that come and go.

     You will find times in your second life where you meet people that you will become close to. The amount of friends that you will make can be outstanding. Some of those friends will just be slight acquaintances that will come into your life for a moment. Sometimes you will see them around rarely and some you will see everyday. Some you will form lasting friendships with that will mean more to you then you realize and others will just bring a smile to your face when you see them. All of these friendships have a meaning and are special. Even if you only talk to them for brief periods, a single IM here or there saying hello, or catching up on what has gone on in your life. You never really know when you meet someone how important they may become to you. You find that out over time. A lot of the people you become close to will stay with you throughout your SL life. Others may drop out of sight for long periods or forever. When this happens you wonder about them and worry. Because we never know what happened to them, we don't know if they just ditched that SL life and started a new one or if something happened far worse. Unfortunately you can't let yourself ponder over it to much because more then likely the explanation is that they just simply stopped playing the game. You can imagine them laying on a calm sunny island somewhere shutting out the world or traveling to some far country if that makes you feel better. It all works as long as you don't let it bother you to much.
     Some of these people you become very close to, feelings change and relationships change everyday. How you handle those changes is up to you. Honesty is important with these relationships and friendships more then anything. A lot of these friendships may turn into more and then you find they don't work out. Do you stay friends or cut them out completely? I say no, they were friends before and they can stay friends. As long as honesty is there and you understand the reasoning all is good. Because basically although the avatar's are just pixels the people behind them are very real and so are the feelings. It is up to you yourself to decide how to handle the friends that come and go. How to handle the feelings that are involved, and the relationships. I believe that if you can stay friends through what ever happens that your life will be better for it.
      Anger and hostility have no place in SL, the whole reason we go there is to escape the drama's and realities of our real lives. Why should we bring that drama into SL? Keep it simple and emotions in check. There is no reason for hate even if things don't happen the way you may have thought or wanted them to be. No reason to stop being friends with all of the people that were associated with you. Unfortunately not all will feel this way and some people will cut all ties with you and others will remain.  It will be those that remain that will be the highlights, those that do not, well you can't let yourself dwell on it. Continue on with your SL life and leave the anger and resentment behind. Because when it all comes down to it, we come here for escape and entertainment. You can't deny it, but you can choose how you react to things in your Second Life. You can live it without resentment and hostility and let bygones be bygones or you can continue your Second Life letting the anger and hostility consume you till you react in an unflattering way. I choose the latter, to live and let bygones be bygones. To keep the friends that you can and let go the ones you can't go even if it hurts, because in the long run it will make for a better Second Life. Second Life is for fun, you may find love and lose it, you may find friendships and lose them too. In the long run however what you do is up to you but keep an open mind and try to live your Second Life in a positive way. Believe me you and the ones around you will be better for it. Throw the anger and hostility out the window and just let it float away on the wind and allow the clean clear breath back in to refresh and renew you. You will benefit in the long run if you can just let it go.
   Because in the end this is Your Second Life no one else's and only you can decide how it will play out. All you can do is do your best, try to keep the friends you can and let go those you can't, and hope to keep as many close to you as possible and not let them go unless you have to. For friendships are important to all of us and we should not allow them to fade away too easily. If they can be saved then save them don't let hard feelings ruin things. Let it go and get over it, it will mean a better SL for you and for those around you.

Making Friends and lasting relationships. Can you do it in SL?

Absolutely!
That is one of the best things about Second Life the people you encounter. Second life gives you the chance to not only make long lasting friendships but relationships as well. You not only get an opportunity to meet fascinating people here but people of many different cultures. All interacting in a setting with no bias and hopefully no prejudice. You see an avatar and you start to talk to him. You can base your opinion on the individual themselves, not their color or nationality. It is a wonderful thing. Yes you will not get along with everyone you encounter but at least you can decide for yourself whether you like that person or not, on your own, without the outside opinions that the world may have put upon you. There are also many who find love in SL. Yes it is possible to fall in love with someone you have never actually seen. I think Second Life gives us the opportunity to fall in love with the real person. Not the outside we often show people. In real life we all tend to hide ourselves inside not letting many see the real us. In Second Life though we can show more of ourselves then others can. Showing people our inner minds that we may hide from others. Being able to create things here that you may not have the opportunity to do in RL. So you may be meeting the person that is more likely their true selves rather then the one they hide from the real world.

Now I am not a fan of SL weddings but I do understand how some would want to get married in SL. They may not be for me but for others they are fine. To have the opportunity to join into a relationship is a wonderful thing and if a couple wants to do that with Second Life vows then who am I to disagree with that. However I do not think they are necessary. I think it is up to the individual and what they want to get out of SL. 

Relationships in SL can be a truly wonderful thing, the connections made here are real and should not be made fun of or dismissed. Is Second life addicting? Yes of course it is and one of the reasons for that are the people that we encounter here. The relationships and friendships made here are just as real as they are in real life. There is no denying that fact, and those that do are fooling themselves. We find friends and loved ones that make lasting connections in our hearts and minds and it is as real as if they were standing in front of us.
So come on in and explore Second Life. Don't be afraid I promise you will meet a broad array of people and personalities that will make the experience one you will want to continue over and over, and soon you too will be addicted like the rest of us!

Downsides to SL

     Yes people I have found one of the downsides of Second Life. Now I am not saying it is bad enough to ever leave, oh no we can't do that. However there are people out there that are not happy unless they can make others miserable. This is really not any different then real life, there are always people like that. We have a names for the people in SL that cause problems with our fun. They are called Grievers or stalkers. Some are less of a problem then others, they will just walk around or try and frequent the places you go to try and catch a sight of you and then may say things in local chat or consistently IM you. Some are out there who think you are their soul mate and they feel they just need to convince you. Some however may decide that for some reason or another you are a target to destroy. This can happen in many ways, even with good intentions, if a person is off balance then even being nice can backfire.
     I recently got my first scary stalker. He is angry because I would not give him a job back that he was not capable of doing. Now I am a nice person and I treat everyone with respect and kindness, however that is not always enough. No matter how nice you are to someone it can still backfire if you are not giving them what they want, and nothing can stop them. These people are a little off in their thinking I am afraid. There are ways that they can make your lives miserable so here are a few things you can do to help keep them at bay.
1. Buy a security orb for your property, and not just any particular one find a good one.
2. Ban them from your property
3. Let all the people you work with and ask your employer to ban them from the property as well
4. Block and Mute them. This is kind of fun because if you see them they are like a grey blobs.
5. Remember that they can make alts. So be careful and not too trusting
6. Yes there are security outfits in SL that can protect you and help you. I say contact one.
7. Let your friends know what is going on and who the person is so they too can keep an eye out.
If you follow those steps it may not guarantee you safety but it will go a long way in helping.

On that note I would like to remind you that SL is fun and the drama should be left in RL. Sometimes that can not be avoided but there are ways to minimize it.
So go into SL and have a blast with all you can do there and see, I promise you won't regret it!

DJ and Vampire life in Second Life

OK all of you wonderful people out there. If you didn't know this yet I am a DJ in second life. Yes that's right, I attempt to burn up the sl airwaves at some of the best clubs in SL. Let me tell you I have found this to be a blast! The people you can meet are one of the best parts of the job. Yes I said job because I make Lindens, which of course is sl's term for money. Which is a good thing because as I have talked about before I do love my shopping. However I find that even better then the money I make are the friendships I find. I work at three clubs now the incredible Club Embraced which is owned by two very dear friends of mine, Club Haze and Club Distruktion, all of which are vampire friendly. Which brings me to my next topic.

Playing a RP in second life is one of the great perks. Allowing you to do something you would not do normally and also allowing you to participate in the other parts of SL that are not considered RP. I have chosen to be a vampire in second life. This is something I have found to be not only enjoyable but a way to make friends. I have made some wonderful friends and would not trade my experience for anything. The only problem is that people tend to give us vampires a bad rap. I am here to tell you we are normal people. Yes there are a few that may push or try to bite you without your knowledge, but in reality it is ALWAYS your choice to be bitten. You cannot be bitten unless you except the bite. So that is your choice, if you are bitten it is because you excepted it. There is no way for us to bite you without your permission, and the way to avoid it is to not except it. However I do not bite randomly. I always talk to people and find out if they are interested in the game. If they are I give them all the information available and train them so they have the knowledge to play it correctly. For remember knowledge is power and the more you have the better you are at whatever you choose to do. So I would love it if people would stop classifying us into a category we don't all belong. Don't discount us and not get to know us just because we play a vampire in SL. We are still regular people and you may be missing out on someone truly extraordinary if you don't at least take a few minutes to talk to us. We need to get rid of the stigma that all vampires are bad and start working on the positive aspects and of course the fun.

So if you see me out there in the SL world send me an im. Try and get to know me you will see I am a nice person even if I am a vampire, and I never bite unless you ask or give your permission. It is just not my style and is not the style of the majority. Give us a chance and you will find friendly, interesting and beautiful people behind those fangs. So really what have you got to lose?

Well all you fabulous people out there I have something new to talk about now. Yes I have started a new Career in second life! I am no longer a dancer at the Club Ambrosia, which I have to say is a shame I made a lot of good friends there and will miss working with them greatly. Some I will not miss so much. However SL is like RL in the ways that you will meet people that you may not get along with. Hey it happens, no biggie, you just deal with it and go forward. So I am going forward!
I am now known in the wonderful world of SL as DJ Teradawn! Yes that's right people I am now attempting to burn up the airways in different clubs around SL. I am having a blast right now, still getting my DJ legs under me so to speak, but let me tell you it is a blast! Now if you are planning on being a dj there are classes in SL that will teach how to do it. Unfortunately they leave out a few things. Like how to adjust your mic so you don't sound like you are talking while wadding up a paper bag. There is a little known adjustment on your mic that says config. Let me tell you this is the dj's best friend here! You adjust those packets starting 10 & 25 and you will sound clear as a bell. I think that should be taught in the class but it was not so I am telling you myself.
My next thing to do was to make a group for myself. Now I thought this would be easy till I had to start thinking about what my group member tags would be. Now I am not always really creative but I wanted them to have something that they would enjoy having above their heads. I think I picked out a good one for now. Who knows we may be changing it later, that is yet to be decided. However I sent group requests to my friends thinking that most would not accept, I mean we all have tons of groups on our lists and I know how hard it is to decide which ones to drop. So I did not expect the positive response I got and how many people joined. Let me just say I have some of the best friends in SL. They are great and I appreciate them more then they know.
Well that was a brief synopsis of what I have been doing for the last couple of days. I have turned into a full fledged dj still getting her feet wet. I am working at 3 clubs now. The hot and upcoming Embraced nightclub, the awesome Club Haze and also soon to start at Distruktion. I am thrilled and will be able to play a huge range of music.
So that is all for now but keep checking back I am sure plenty of stories are yet to come, like the Naughty Song night I played last night. Talk about steaming it up, it was out of control sexy!
Seems that my fans like me to play the naughty tunes and I am more then willing to oblige them.
Kisses all!

Today I decided to talk about the dating scene in SL. You will meet a broad range of people here and some of them will rub you the wrong way and some will rub you right. No I do not mean in a sexual sense so get those minds out of the gutter. Well you don't have to take them out of the gutter since that can be more fun but you get my meaning. Now it continues to amaze me how bold some of these men are. I mean I don't know of any man doing some of the things being done in real life that they do here. Besides the goofs walking around just spouting out that they want to have sex. You have the ones that like to not say nothing, pop up a friend request and expect you to accept it. There have been times I have hit the accept button not realizing it was a friend request. I get bombarded with note cards and such so sometimes they slip through, but then they take that as a sign you want to do the big nasty. I mean it is a friend request people not a sex on demand button! Come on, do you seriously think I am going to run out and pop out my pose balls for anyone that comes along? Especially one that does not even say hi how are you first? It continues to amaze me the stupidity of some of these guys. Oh actually I should not say guys only, some women have been just as bold. I do find that a bit weird though. Being a woman I tend to think friendship when a women im's me or sends a request. I have been shocked at times to find them doing the same things that some of the men do. Although that does bring up a very important thing to remember in SL. Unless you have heard them talk you never know whether the person behind the avatar is the same sex as said avatar or not. So beware!
Now at times you can tell if the person behind the female avatar is a man and not a women. I mean they say things that a woman would never say. However others are more sly and it is a lot harder. I find that women who play male avi's are the hardest to figure out unless you get them in voice. We women, obviously, have the key to our own likes and dislikes. Sadly men you are not so lucky, yes the women seem to be more able to pull off the opposite sex ploy better then the men. So let me say this, if they are not willing to put a voice out there at some point, when you are alone, then be cautious. You can pull so many pictures off the Internet that a picture is simply not enough anymore. So male or female, talk to them, it is the only way for you to know truly what there sex is.

Oh and I have officially started to add to my little Vampire family, and I must say it is very exciting. I find it fascinating to see the differences in the people that I find. I think I have found some of the craziest (in a good way) fun people to bring into my personal family. One thing I don't know is what do they call themselves. Brothers and sisters seem a bit strange since they at any point could start dating, and I can't seem to come up with anything else. So if you have any suggestions, let me know!

Ok so the last couple of days or so I have been setting up my new Sim. I bought a huge gorgeous house that would be my dream in Real life. Ok it is not a house it is a mansion! I mean this thing has a theatre pool, hot tubs and so many rooms I lose count. Of course in SL you can make anything into whatever you want. But here are some rules and things to remember, I will let you learn from my mistakes, lol. First when you put your rez box down make sure you allow it to terraform first, other wise the house did not rez level. You may not see this at first but later you will know that it is not as it should be. I did not realize it till I had already done some major remodeling. So now I have decided to scrap it and redo the entire thing. My furniture is in place and I have changed every texture in the house so this means more hours of remodeling ahead. Not looking forward to it but I have no choice. My doors do not lock because the house did not link up correctly. Someone was kind enough to come into my house when I was not there and look around. I came in and everything with a pose ball had pose balls rezzed, lol. I know I did not do it so it has me curious what was going on in my house. Some things I probably don't want to know. However some good things have come out of this. Besides learning to terraform I have learned to not be afraid to try new things. I have taught my self how to build walls, windows, mountains and waterfalls. I have learned how to make textures fit and modify them to what I want. I have learned how to take out walls and kitchens and replace them. So all in all even with the mistakes I have learned more from experience than my mistakes. So don't be afraid to get out the and try making things, you can always delete them if you don't like it. So get out there and start making your dreams in SL come true, don't be scared, the SL police won't come and get you for messing up their world. Hell I don't even think there are SL police out there, maybe I have just been a good girl and not seen them, I hope so. Maybe I will do something bad just to find out? Till next time!

A Girls Life in SL the beginning.

Ok let me first say that I find Second Life truly a Second Life. The things you can do there continue to amaze me daily. I have been in SL now for about 4 months and in many ways I am still a newbie but I don't consider myself so new anymore. So I wanted to create this blog for all the girls out there to talk about shopping, jobs, living in SL and of course Men! I will try to update it daily and let you know about my experiences. Oh and did I mention I am a vampire in SL. Not one of the scary ugly kind mind you I like my fashion to much. Besides nothing wrong with looking good when you ask a guy for a little nibble. I also just purchased my first sim and will talk about the trials and tribulations found with terraforming and altering original material to suit your tastes. You can learn from my many mistakes, and believe me there have been plenty. I hope that some of the guys will read this too because I plan on letting you know what does not work and what does when trying to catch the interest of a girl. I mean seriously guys asking me if I want a picture of you Penis when all you have done is say hi is really not going to get me. And what is it with the random friend requests? I mean have you thought about saying hi first and maybe letting me know who you are before you slap a request in my face? Those kinds of things will get you no where so read my blogs and I will try to help you out, lol! So ladies and gents since this is my first post it is pretty basic but I promise more. Some will be to help you out in daily life and some will may get pretty hot, I mean the sexy level in SL Is way up there and I get my fill of sexy and then some. So come along for the ride and maybe you will learn something and you will I hope definitely get a laugh or two.
Thanks!
Teradawn Serenity